This is a story of how everything started.
I think it is important to know why I am writing these blog articles. There is already so much information on esoteric matters. Who am I to add anything to that?
Well, I see many gaps in the information. If I could fill these gaps, it could help people. It could help even spiritual teachers. Or spark discussions in new directions. Like in the scientific world, which (I hope) will once embrace the non-physical.
But then again? What gives me any authority?
To answer that, we need to go back to my past.
Maybe you can relate to anything in my story 🙂
In the beginning
When I was young, I was extremely sensitive. That gave me problems, especially when I was in a busy environment. Later, I found out that I could not handle all the emotions that I picked up from the others. It took me 5 years and therapy to get it under control. Around that time (age of 5..10) I found out that I “knew” things that other people didn’t. Like in church, I felt so much pain, deceit and dishonesty when the priest was talking. Later I found out that I felt the energy that the Catholic Church has built up in the last centuries.
In my teens and twenties, I learned to control this. I felt energies flowing inside me, but also often in other people, and between other people. I noticed that I did not have the train of thoughts like other people have. I only have thoughts if I want to think. So it is usually nicely quiet in my head (not always, though).
I also noticed that I could “talk” to something in my head, and it always replied. Usually with simple answers or deep insights. These “discussions” were not with words, but with flashes of stories. Just like my usual way of thinking. But I did not use this “divine helpdesk” often. Usually, I was too busy doing too many things at once.
However, I always used my intuition in important situations. In my twenties, I started working in a research laboratory, doing scientific and technical work. I created many inventions using my intuition. Deep down, it felt like second nature to do that. I will write a how-to blog article about that.
Then my life became even more busy, with a wife, children, building a new house, and startup companies.
Meditations
When the children became older, I got more time for myself. I followed a meditation course, which helped me to relax / recharge. So I could do even more work haha 🙂
But with these daily meditations, I noticed my frequency became higher (by lack of better word). I started eating healthier. Also thinking healthier. Doing healthier. And a few years later, I suddenly had a remarkable moment during my meditation: I felt away from my body, from time, from everything. My consciousness was a million times clearer, and I observed the whole universe. I saw how we created everything, how people played around in each of their lives, I saw why there was suffering, and why there was love. I fully recognized it, like “oh, yes, this is as I remember it”. It was recognition of what I was forgotten when I started this life here. It is impossible to express it in words, but this day was more important to me than any other day in my life. Also, it took weeks to wear off the smile on my face.
Since then, it happened more often during meditation, but the contents changed: one time I got lessons about the universal laws. Another time how people work, with their body systems, and energetic interrelations with other items (I will write blog articles about that too). Another time I got lessons how to be a better dad. And then lessons about the power of symbols, what we speak, what we think, about energies from planets, about spiritual hygiene, and about importance of integrity.
I also learned how to make better use of my divine helpdesk (I call them my Team).
By the way, everybody has a team of helpers in the non-physical. They love you infinitely and do everything possible to help you, within the boundaries.
But, in the course of 1 year, my meditations became less deep, and these experiences faded. They were less needed. I felt like it was now up to me to take action. I asked my Team, “please tell me what I need to do with all this information?” and they laughed. They told me: “we are just your helpers, YOU are the boss here, you have chosen for free will, so please make use of your free will”.
They told me that they are not allowed to disclose anything, but apparently before I incarnated I have asked them to wake me up in my fifties. So they did.
Cleaning up
Meanwhile, I resolved some important blocking energy paths in our family system (unresolved pain), and also unresolved issues from previous lives as well as cutting ties with vows I did in the past that no longer served me. This gave me much more freedom to interact with my surrounding energies. My world changed a lot in that period. Continuously I saw signals from the Universe, and lived much better in sync with the world and I understood energies I felt much better.
I shared this only with some people around me because many people are not up to this yet, I guess (which is totally fine).
If you have read this so far, then I can tell you that you DO need this information to move forward. Please keep reading 🙂
By the way, I am a music composer, and often I compose by tuning in to a source outside myself. Then I play notes that sound beautiful, but I know the notes don’t come from myself. Maybe it is like channeling, but with music. I hear that many musicians used this technique (Beatles, Sting, etc.).
Back to the intense meditations. While they flattened, there was something else coming up: once a month, or often once a week, always around 4 o’clock in the morning, I woke up with what often is called “a download” or a revelation. I wake up, for instance, with music in my head. As a music composer, it was profound to see new music from another realm being given to me. I could touch and feel the emotion of every single note. Of course, immediately afterward, I wrote it down to later record it.
These experiences became more and more intense in the course of months. At some point, it was normal for me to wake up, feeling like I am floating 1 meter above my bed with the energy of a wild river, getting notes and music. It felt like it was given to me as a present. Or that “something out there” is using me as an outlet to send music to this world. But it feels like a very positive and trustful energy. So I am happy with it.
Currently, I have released 20+ songs on Spotify, but I still have over 40 songs that need to be converted into releasable songs. I will do this in the next years. I am not a good musical artist, but I am learning and improving. Maybe I find help with text writers or other musicians.
Nightly downloads/revelations
Back to the 4 o’clock events: the first 6 months it was mainly about music, but then it shifted: I received training for being interviewed. The topics were about exactly what I learned during the awakening meditations. After these trainings were done, the sessions shifted towards experiencing a table-of-contents of a book. I recognized it as my book, that I presumably will write in the future.
So early 2024 I started writing the book. That went quite fast, but halfway I had a feeling that I needed to stop and find out where the second half of the book should go to (to avoid making it unreadable or unpractical). So I stopped for a few months. The 4 o’clock downloads also diminished to a minimum.
Then I got a feeling I should make meditation and healing music, since many people need it. I started “Spirit Body Healing” music, and released the first tracks.
After the 3rd track, I suddenly got a new 4 o’clock download: I saw somebody with depression and anxiety problems googling on his computer for help, and I saw him reading a blog article, which helped him very much. When I looked closer, I noticed that it was my (future) website. I thought, “wow! I will first expose my insights via blog articles, and later in the form of books”. That is why I have set up this “Spirit Body Healing” blogging website: to get better at writing (English is not my native language) and to find my way.
I am happy you are still reading this.
You might think that I feel myself superior about this all, but no, the opposite is true.
I am just a human, I don’t know everything, and I have my own adventure.
These insights that I got were very humbling, and I started seeing things in perspective.
It activated an infinite source of wisdom inside me, and I know that everybody can learn this too.
I don’t do it for money or fame.
With this platform, I am happy if I can help other people.
I hope I can write many blog posts, and that you keep reading them 🙂